You and I had dreams. We had really big dreams and honestly I couldn’t afford to dream much and now I finally realize I was wrong. Life had been difficult and it had been cruel. Anyway, I am not going to talk about my life today but about the notebook I found and what was written in it.
The first entry is on 26th of July 2016. There are few pages where I have written down the lyrics like:
‘Wo shaam kuch ajeeb thi
Ye shaam bhi ajeeb hai
Woh kal bhi pass thi
Woh aaj bhi kareeb thi
Woh shaam kuch ajeeb thi’
Jhuki hui nigaahon mai
Kahi mera khayal tha
Dabi dabi hansi mainh ek
Haseen sa gulaal tha
Main sochta tha mera
Naam gunguna rahi hai woh…’
&
‘Naam gum jaega,
chehra ye badal jaega
Meri aawaz hi pehchaan hai,
agar yaad rahe
Waqt ke sitam kam haseen nahi
Aaj hai yahan kal kahin nahi
Waqt ke pare agar mil gaye kabhi,
meri aawaz hee
Naam gum jaega,
chehra ye badal jaega
Meri aawaz hi pehchaan hau,
gar yaad rahe…’
Back to the dreams. We had a few plans and making it big. Of starting something new and the failed efforts. Now that I read them after a year or so I feel nostalgic. There is a page in the middle where I have made notes from one of the courses I took. The course was based on that one idea. They are mere notes now.
Like I say, life has changed. Sigh!
Thoughts of a Crooked Mind 